{Dear Max} 22 months

Dear Max,

Oh my sweet boy, you are growing up way too fast! I can’t believe you are already 22 months old! It’s so strange to think about that.  The whole time we’ve been waiting on baby Drew we have been thinking about how you will be 23 months old when you become a big brother…and now that is only a (short) month away!

You’ve been so snuggly and clingy lately…maybe because you know you will have share me soon?  I’m sure that at least part of it is because you have had a cold for the last week or so.  Either way, I can’t complain about the extra snuggles.  I miss you being tiny and just holding you all the time.

I am pretty sure you are going to start speaking in sentences any day now.  You are constantly talking and you are picking up a new word about every day.  Now when we say “I love you,” you say “eeeee youuuuu!” We know you are trying to say you love us, and we just can’t hear enough of it.  Your newest favorite word is “happy” and you say it all the time…which is perfect because you are seriously the happiest little boy in the world, I am sure of it.  You bring us so much joy.

You have been such a big helper for me lately.  My doctor hasn’t let me do much over the last month, and we aren’t allowed to run errands without Daddy anymore.  But on days where we have no choice you are the absolute best behaved sweet pea one can imagine.  We went to get yarn a few weeks ago at Michael’s and you just held my hand and walked beside me, carrying a skein of yarn.  People say I am going to have my hands full once Drew gets here between you and him, but I just can’t quite believe it.  And even if I do, it will all be worth it and I will love every second of it.  You make me so thankful to be a mommy…I couldn’t dream of being anything better.

I’ve already started worrying a little about how the next month and a half or so is going to be for you…there are going to be a lot of changes.  You will become a big brother, and we are most likely going to be moving.  I just pray that you will take it all in stride and that you will understand what is going on.  I hope it isn’t too hard on you.  I know it will be so good once you get used to things- we are going to be living really close to you Mimi, Pop, Nanny, Papaw, and so many other family members.  It will probably make us all a little sad to be leaving this house.  We have only lived here a year, but that year has been a full one…full of such wonderful memories that I will never forget.  Everything is going to be fantastic though, I just know it.

I love you to the moon and back sweet boy.

Love,

Mommy

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constantly telling Bo about everything…you two love it when it’s warm enough to open the windows!

yet another adventure

We wanted to share with you guys…that we are (hopefully) buying a house!  So strange, we weren’t even looking for a house.  This one happened to have just come on the market in our hometown, and we love it, so we put in an offer on it! And…it was accepted!

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Now we are just waiting on inspection and appraisal so that we can close on it towards the end of February.  Please be praying for us!  I am super nervous about the inspection and appraisal.  The house seems to be in fantastic condition, but you just never know.  Yes, the timing is a little bit crazy (I will be 38 weeks 4 days pregnant on the date we are scheduled to close), but it is actually pretty perfect.  Our lease is up at our current house at the end of March, so we will be able to move before we would have to sign another lease.  The plan (as of now) is to move AFTER Drew gets here so we won’t have to worry about being far away from the hospital and my doctor.

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I know what you are thinking…”my gosh that house is a terrible color!” And we agree.  There are definitely a few cosmetic changes that we want to tackle soon, but there is not a lot to complain about.  Check out those windows!  They are huge.  The whole house gets a ton of natural light, the floors are beautiful, there is exposed brick in the living room, and there are exposed trusses in the entire house (minus the hall and the bathroom).  We really feel like this could be the house we live in for forever.

Just be praying for everything to go smoothly with inspection, appraisal, and closing…as well as for our sanity!  I have to admit I am a little bit stressed (of course) about having to pack on top of all the other preparations we will be making in the next month before Drew arrives.  Normally I would be waiting to pack until after inspection, but I feel like I have to have it all done for the most part before we have a baby if I want to get it done at all, so I have already started.

Thank you all in advance for your prayers and support…we feel a lot better about taking such a huge leap because we know a ton of people have our backs!  We will keep you updated with how things go 🙂

Let Go

It has become apparent to me over the last few years that I am a bit of a control freak, and it causes me a lot of anxiety. The “unknown” makes me a little crazy, and sometimes even sick. I have a plan for EVERYTHING. I have a serious (but not so serious that it requires medication) anxiety problem thanks to this.

My husband is the exact opposite. Laid back, do whatever whenever, not worried about anything. That perfectly describes him. Thank God, seriously. He helps me calm down a lot of the time without even realizing that he is doing it, and it is perfect.

Even with Nick’s personality kind of keeping my anxiety at bay a little, I still need to make changes in my attitude towards life and planning it so that I can be happier. Period. I know that by worrying it says that I am not trusting in God to take care of it, but it so so hard for me to just let go. I have a long way to go.

We have a bit of crazy stuff going on today that I have zero control over (nothing bad, more about that later perhaps), and I am trying so hard to give it all to God. I am so thankful for this song by Jonathan David and Melissa Helser today…it has been my saving grace and has been on repeat for the last hour. I just had to share it with you…maybe I am not the only one who needs to learn to be less anxious and realize that God’s got this. I don’t have to worry.

My sister in-law, Chelsea, just sent me the most encouraging text message (she’s the best). She reminded me that “God already has a plan you and it is going to happen no matter what. No amount of stressing can help that.” And she is exactly right. We need to always remember that.

ALSO, I have an iPhone Bible app that gives me a “verse of the day” every day. Todays? Matthew 6:34 (MSG)–
“Give your entire attention to what God is doing right now, and don’t get worked up about what may or may not happen tomorrow. God will help you deal with whatever hard things come up when the time comes.”
Wow. God really knows exactly what we need every second of every day. I am so thankful that I can rest in Him.

Mondays

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Enjoying the sunshine and rolling a car on the window sill this morning

 

I have never understood why people hate Mondays so much.  Even moms I know that don’t work hate Mondays.  Usually I can’t relate at all to you normal-work-Monday-through-Friday people.  My husband is a manager at Lowe’s and has a weird schedule for his days off.  He is on a four week rotating schedule and only has one weekend off a month.  The rest of the weeks, he may be off Monday and Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday, or Sunday and Friday.  So…as you can imagine, our Mondays are not usually like the “normal” Mondays.

BUT hubby was off this weekend, and today is Monday.  Part of me gets it.  I am certainly missing Nick today (and Max is too).  And I was sad to see our family time end when he went to work this morning.  The rest of me…most of me…doesn’t get it at all, to be honest.  I have actually really enjoyed our day!  Mondays (or the day after hubby has two days off…depending on the week) are ALWAYS my most productive days.  Despite my looming exhaustion, I have already done all the laundry and have gotten several things knocked off my “to do before Drew” list.  Max has been in a fantastic mood all day, and I haven’t scolded the puppy all day (I am sure this will happen before it’s over, but still).  I cooked breakfast and lunch, cleaned up the kitchen after each meal, and this is my second blog post of the day.  

My theory is that we are refreshed on Mondays.  By the time the weekend came around, we were all tired, missing each other, and ready for something besides the monotonous, day to day tasks.  Over this weekend, we traveled to our hometown of Wilkesboro, NC to spend time with family.  We stayed at my parents’ house, had dinner with Nick’s parents a couple of times, had a day-time mini date without Max (probably our last before Drew’s arrival) on Saturday, met our friends’ new baby girl (please look me up on instagram and check that out! Max loved her), and went to church on Sunday morning. We all enjoyed ourselves immensely!  And now that the weekend is over and it is Monday again, I feel motivated, energized (as much as I can be), and ready to get things done.  Plus, there are just 3 hours or so left in the day before I will be waiting at the door with Max for his Daddy to get home!  

For all of you who hate Mondays…here is a little encouragement for the rest of your day:

“Jesus was matter-of-fact: “Embrace this God-life.  Really embrace it, and nothing will be too much for you.  This mountain, for instance: Just say, ‘Go jump in the lake’– no shuffling or shilly-shallying– and it’s as good as done.  That’s why I urge you to pray for absolutely everything, ranging from small to large.  Include everything as you embrace this God-life, and you’ll get God’s everything. And when you assume the posture of prayer, remember that it’s not all asking. If you have anything against someone, forgive– only then will your heavenly Father be inclined to also wipe your slate clean of sins.”

    -Mark 11:22-25 (The Message)

Snow!

Snow!

We saw a little bit of snow over Christmas when we drove up the mountain to Boone, NC, but other than that Max can’t remember seeing snow before. Well, we are forecasted to get between 3 and 6 inches tonight! We haven’t been able to drag him away from the windows yet…he is so curious.

He signs (ASL) “rain” and says it as if he is asking a question, then he quickly shakes his head and says “NO.” I don’t think he quite understands what snow is, yet. But he has been practicing saying “snow” all night. I love being able to watch him learn about new things and see how excited he gets!

Hopefully we will get to go out and play in the snow a little tomorrow if hubby gets off work in time…thanks to how slick it is sure to be I have been told (by my protective hubs) that I am to stay inside so I don’t fall. I think he’s probably right 😉

Stay safe and have fun if you are getting snow!!

33 weeks and counting

7 weeks to go. Is this real? Are we really going to be parents to not just one, but TWO boys in just 7 (very short) weeks? Part of me finds this hard to believe while the other part is beyond ready. Strangely enough though, I am having a relatively easy time wrapping my mind around how life will be with a two year old and a newborn. I actually think I am being pretty realistic about it. I know there will be more crying, more diapers, less sleep, a touch of jealousy from Max. Really. You don’t have to tell me that stuff. But I am so so happy to think about all those good moments that we will get to experience. I can’t wait to snuggle Drew up in the carrier, hold Max’s hand, and venture out into the world to see what kind of fun we can have as a family of four. People keep telling me I am going to have my hands full (and are pretty rude about it), but I am so excited to dive into the chaos of becoming a mom (again).

Thanks to some unwanted contractions, I have been put on a few restrictions in the last couple of weeks. Carry Max less, do less house work at a time. Don’t over-do it. Rest more. All things that are basically impossible to even consider as a stay at home mom whose life revolves around taking care of her family and who is starting to feel the urge to nest. But I have tried, and have realized that I HAVE to listen to my body, even if it isn’t what I want to do. I was working a day or two a week at a little dance wear store here in town, but after my shift last night, hubby and I decided that was over until after Drew’s arrival. Even trying to “do less” while I am at work has proven to be difficult, and working last night was much harder than I had expected…my body hated me for it. I love working at the dance store though, and am a little sad to be saying “goodbye” for now.

There really isn’t anything else new going on this week, but I just wanted to share a few of my thoughts with y’all! At this point it is really just a waiting game…