{39 weeks} thoughts

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Today I am actually 39 weeks and 1 day pregnant with mister Andrew Tate. That is the “most pregnant” I have ever been (I was induced with Max at 38 weeks 6 days, and he was born at 39 weeks). So many feelings and emotions today. So many.

This is about to get real, y’all.

Most of me is sick of being pregnant and wants him out and into my arms this second. I’m tired. And I’m completely over the swollen feet, no sleep, pee every 30 minutes world that is being this pregnant. I want all my shoes to fit again, please. 3 pairs is just not cutting it (especially when those pairs are Crocs, Keens, and Toms. Toms are pretty much the only pair that get to go out of the house on my feet).

All of me is feeling so beyond happy/excited/ecstatic and every other positive emotion you can come up with. I can’t wait to hold this boy in my arms, love on him, nurse him, sing to him, and learn all about what he has to offer this world. I can’t wait to watch Nick become a Daddy again. I can’t wait to watch Max become the best big brother there is, even if that may take some time, and even if it is difficult at first. I can’t wait to really feel like I am stepping into my role as a mother…for the second time around.

Then comes the hard stuff. I feel sad. I didn’t expect to feel sad. I’m sad that Max won’t be the littlest baby anymore. I am bound and determined to snuggle him up on a daily basis and make sure he isn’t missing out on any love, but it still makes me sad. I feel like I’m going to miss him. All day every day, it’s us two, and now that’s all going to change. I’m sad to be spending the night away from him. He’s going to be staying with my parents (Mimi and Pop to him) while we are in the hospital, and he’s never stay the night with anyone but Nick and I before. I can’t think of better people for him to stay with and i know he will be fine, but I am so sad to be away from him overnight.

I’m scared. We really have no idea what we are getting ourselves into. Once again, I know it will be fine, and probably even wonderful, BUT it’s going to be different and scary, too. I’m so glad we will be living close to family soon and that I have a fantastic husband who will keep me calm if/when everything seems to be falling apart.

Seriously, though…who knew so many emotions would come around this time? I didn’t even hardly scratch the surface. I don’t really remember feeling this way when Max was born.

When I went to the doctor today, we made the decision that I will be induced within the next week, unless Drew decides to come sooner on his own! They will be calling me tomorrow to schedule it!

We prayed for this baby. And he’s going to be here so soon! I am stepping into this new adventure with faith and knowing that God is going to help us be the best parents to our boys. We are so very blessed.

**if you made it to the end of this post and actually read the whole thing, you deserve a medal! Sorry for being long-winded, but I am so happy that I actually got all those thoughts out of my head and onto “paper” 🙂

We bought a house!

A lot of people said there was no possible way we would close on time. SO many people have been freaking out about the fact that we were supposed to close when I was 38 weeks 4 days pregnant with Drew. And guess what? We closed on our house on Friday, the original closing date we chose, and everything went perfectly, if not better!

All I know to say is that God had to be watching out for us. This whole process went so smoothly, and even though it was still somewhat stressful, we couldn’t have asked for it to go better. And I am so thankful for that, especially in these last few weeks of pregnancy.

If you are buying a house in Wilkes county, I would highly recommend our realtor, and we cannot say enough good things about her. Feel free to ask me about her if you’d like!

I am also extremely thankful for the people who helped us out this weekend so we could get everything done that we needed to while we were home. My mom watched Max while we went to have the water turned on at the new house, did the final walk through, and went to closing. They also kept him while we ran a few errands on Saturday. Max does pretty good with errands, but it was a huge help to have someone hang out with him instead of taking him along, and we got our errands taken care of much quicker because of them. We are also really thankful for Nick’s friend, Zack, who helped him install our new kitchen faucet and the curtain rods in our bedroom. There are so many people who have been supportive of us during this transition and probably more people than we even know about that have been praying for us in the past few weeks. It would be impossible to name all of you, but THANK YOU SO MUCH to all of our family and friends. It means more than you know to have so many people backing us up with all these crazy changes happening all at once!

I wanted to include some pictures from our weekend spent at the new house! We got a lot of cleaning done, changed out the kitchen faucet and the shower head, picked out paint colors, and had a ton of fun 🙂

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38 weeks and an update on life

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I had every intention of posting this yesterday and being on time with my weekly pregnant post. But of course, my plans didn’t quite work out that way.

First…the baby stuff. I had an ultrasound on Friday to check on Drew’s size and such- to see if I needed to be induced. He weighed in at 7lbs 1oz, which was right on target for 37 weeks 4 days, and all my fluid levels were perfect. Thank goodness! BUT I am already dilated to about 2 cm, so he could really come any day now or in a couple of weeks…who knows? I actually hoped that we would have him in our arms by the end of the weekend, just so we didn’t have to worry about his birth throwing off our closing date for the house, but he has had other plans. I know it would be fine and we can close on a different day if we need to, but I would love to just not have to worry about that. I go back tomorrow for another routine OB appointment, and if there are any changes I will update the blog then 🙂

Now…the house! We got the inspection back a few weeks ago, and the repairs that were needed were only minimal (like for example the bathtub drain was clogged). The seller has fixed everything we asked him to, which is fantastic. Then the appraisal FINALLY came back yesterday and everything is a go. But then we found out the address of the house was changed from two to three digits by the town, which has meant extra paperwork and initialing/signing this and that before it can all be sent to the underwriter. As of now we are still scheduled to close on Friday, and we couldn’t be more excited!

So now I am just trying to take it easy (and not have a baby until Saturday) and finish cleaning, packing and getting ready for baby all at the same time. Not so simple, but its quite an adventure and we are so so happy.

This picture makes things look pretty calm, quiet and peaceful, but don’t let it fool you too much! Things are a little bit crazy. I’m a little overwhelmed…I have given myself the deadline of 39 weeks (just 6 days from now) to have all the packing finished that we could do ahead of time so it would be done before Drew comes. We aren’t moving until mid-March but since we are having a baby in between now and then we have to get things done early. Plus the house needs a good cleaning from top to bottom if possible…actually the new house needs to be cleaned too! Our current landlord is going to start advertising the house we are renting on March 1st, which means we could have strangers coming in and out to look at it soon. Chaos!

I’m just really thankful for all the help we have had! We couldn’t do it without y’all, seriously. You know who you are…and thank you from the bottom of our hearts!

Please just continue to pray for us over these next few weeks…for closing to go well, for Drew to come in God’s perfect timing, and as usual, for our sanity! Also be praying for Max…he has a lot of big changes coming and I am a little worried that its going to be hard for him. We’ve been talking to him about moving for weeks, and about the baby for months, but we are still afraid it’s going to throw him for a loop when it all actually happens. We know it will all be wonderful and totally worth it.

My Valentines

We have never really been the type of couple to go all out for Valentine’s Day. We usually do something (usually meaning we used to before we became parents) like go out to eat or cook a nice dinner at home. Sometimes there are gifts, sometimes there aren’t, and that is completely okay. And we NEVER make a big deal of it. I want to LOVE Valentine’s Day, but I just can’t. I get sick of seeing all the cheesy stuff all over social media networks about how somebody’s boyfriend…well you know this story, and I don’t want to offend anyone.

Despite my feelings towards Valentines Day, I love my husband and my boys, and today is as good a day as any to blog about it 🙂 We just love each other every day, and we do nice things for each other more often than not! That is the way it should be. My love languages are most definitely food and surprises. And Nick is fantastic about surprising me with my favorites. In the last week has he brought home (all on different days) orange juice, heart shaped Bo-berry biscuits, and my favorite cake from a local bakery- strawberry buttercream from Maxi B’s here in Greensboro. He is seriously so so good to me and I love him so much. Every day.

Ok so I will get off my soap box now, and share these sweet pictures of my valentines 🙂 What can I say…my boys…all three of them….are my world, and I don’t know what life would be like without them. They make me smile daily, and the sweet moments I get to see between Max and Nick just melt my heart. Nick is the best daddy, and I can’t wait to see him fall in love with Drew sooner than later! I am also beyond excited to see how the love between hubby and I will grow even more as we become parents for the second time. Golly, I love my life y’all.

PS that first picture of hubs…I couldn’t resist putting it on here. He makes me laugh, and that is one of the things that makes him so wonderful 🙂

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Our “must have” baby items

So I wrote a blog post on our old blog right before moving our blog to WordPress about all the things we love for babies. Even though I thought, honestly, that not many people would care, and that a lot of other people would think our methods of parenting and the views we have about baby gear and all it’s uses are crazy, people apparently actually liked it. It blows my mind that some of you folks out there really do read my blog. It’s even more insane to me that other moms occasionally DO want my advice about things like nursing bras and baby wearing!

Since switching blog platforms I have had a ton of people (okay, okay…less than 10) ask me about carriers, bras, and cosleeping among other things, and they say they can’t find the blog post I wrote about it. Which, I am sure, is due to the move of the blog!

So here is the link to the old blog/our must have baby items, just in case there are more moms lurking about out there who want to know about such things 😉

our “must have” baby items

If y’all have any more questions, PLEASE feel free to ask me! I’m so happy to talk to you about this stuff!

36 weeks and change

36 weeks and change

Finally, something a little interesting. I wanted to wait to update ya’ll until after I went to my weekly doctors appointment, and I just got back.

Drew is measuring big (again) so I will have an ultrasound next week on Friday to check his size and amniotic fluid levels. There is a chance, depending on the results from the ultrasound, that I could be induced prior to my due date. My doctor told me today that either way I probably won’t make it until March, and that I am headed for an 8 pound baby!

BUT I still haven’t gained much weight in the past few weeks. I gained a pound between this week and last week, and he wants me to continue to gain a pound a week from here on out. He literally suggested MILKSHAKES. Seriously? Isn’t that every pregnant woman’s dream?

My group B Strep test came back positive, which only means I will have to have antibiotics during delivery so it isn’t passed on to Drew.

AND I have no more restrictions on what I can and cannot do! If Drew makes his way into the world at this point, it is completely fine (since I am technically only a few days away from being full term). I have been told to do whatever I feel like, and I am so very happy about that. The forecast for tomorrow is 60 degrees and sunny, and I can’t wait to go for a walk with Max.

Not much longer! We will be parents of TWO before we know it! 🙂