dear max [just because]


Dear Max,

I just can’t get enough of you lately, my sweet boy. Last night you woke up in the middle of the night crying, which is really unusual. I was so tempted to bring you to my bed since Daddy was out of town working, just because I didn’t want to be away from you. I wanted to just hold you all night long, because the days of you being little are just passing by too quickly.

We watched a movie this morning, when you woke up a little earlier than normal. Just you and me, bud. You picked “Wreck It Ralph,” and we snuggled on the couch and watched the whole thing together before your brother woke up. It made my heart so happy. I think it was just what we both needed…some mommy and Max time, just us two. You sat with your arm around me for a lot of it, and told me what you saw. A dinosaur, a turtle, Fix it Felix. I asked you if you liked the movie, and you said “yep!”

You are such a funny little thing. And it almost seems like you are getting funnier as you talk more and more. If we say “I love you” you say it back now, every time, and it just gives me the best feeling. I dreamed of these days from the minute I found out you were on your way.

Lately you love trains a lot, and we’ve been to Tweetsie twice this year already. You play with your wooden train all day every day, and you tell me “train goes choo choo” and I just laugh a little because you are so smart and fun and I’m just so happy to be your momma.

I love how you are my sweet boy and my rough and tumble wild man all in one. It’s really the perfect way to be when you are a boy, and I wouldn’t have you be any other way. You mean the world to me, buddy. My little love. I adore sharing my days with you.

Don’t grow up too fast, okay?

I love you to the moon and back!




{dear Max} 2 years

Dear Max,

Happy Birthday, sweet boy!

2 years ago on this day we welcomed into our arms a healthy, happy baby boy that we had already grown to love in our hearts. 2 years ago you made me a momma. 2 years ago we went from being happy newlyweds to even happier new parents…a family. When God gave me you, he gave me the most amazing gift that I always wanted my whole life long- to be a mother, and to have a little family.

Max was very shy about all the people watching him at his sweet!

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Over these two years I have learned so very much from you! Of course I learned to feed you and take care of you. I learned how to go with less sleep and more caffeine, how to make baby food, and how to install a car seat. But oh, you have taught me so so much more than that. You have taught me to treasure the tiniest moments more than all the money in the world. You have taught me how amazing this Earth God created for us to live on really is. Max, you see things in ways that I haven’t in my adult life until now. Everything is so big and beautiful and wonderful to you, and we should all see it that way. It really is big and beautiful and wonderful!

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Since I wrote your last letter you have become a big brother and we moved into our new house in the town Daddy and I grew up in. I was so afraid of how that change would effect you, but you didn’t skip a beat. You love everything about our new house, and you seem so much happier here! I thought you were happy in the old house, but now…there is such a difference. You love the windows and all the sunshine that comes beaming in, your new room, and all the space you have to run. I think you love, most of all, that all our family is so close. Since moving to Wilkes you have also learned to love cows…you point them out as we are driving down the road and it makes me so happy.

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You are the best big brother, Max. Every morning you come see Drew and say “good morning” as well as you can, kiss him on the forehead and just stare at him for a few minutes. I know you love him…you two are going to be the best of friends.

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I can’t wait to see how your language skills continue to change over the next few months. You understand almost all of what we say, and you repeat words constantly…almost like you are practicing ūüôā Your doctor thinks you will start speaking in sentences any time now! You are learning so much every day- from how to do the laundry to puzzles and new words.

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My wild man…you are exactly that. We spend every day going constantly…you never stop moving. You have a chipped tooth and its pretty funny, even though it makes me feel a little bad. Every day you fall about 20 times and rarely cry! As your Mimi says, you are a rough and tumble boy.

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I love being your mommy, sweet boy. Every second of it. I’m a little sad that two years have already passed, but I can’t wait to see what the coming years will be like, either! We will play, laugh, cry, learn, and grow…and it will all be the absolute best.

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I love you to the moon and back!


{Dear Max} 22 months

Dear Max,

Oh my sweet boy, you are growing up way too fast! I can’t believe you are already 22 months old! It’s so strange to think about that. ¬†The whole time we’ve been waiting on baby Drew we have been thinking about how you will be 23 months old when you become a big brother…and now that is only a (short) month away!

You’ve been so snuggly and clingy lately…maybe because you know you will have share me soon? ¬†I’m sure that at least part of it is because you have had a cold for the last week or so. ¬†Either way, I can’t complain about the extra snuggles. ¬†I miss you being tiny and just holding you all the time.

I am pretty sure you are going to start speaking in sentences any day now. ¬†You are constantly talking and you are picking up a new word about every day. ¬†Now when we say “I love you,” you say “eeeee youuuuu!” We know you are trying to say you love us, and we just can’t hear enough of it. ¬†Your newest favorite word is “happy” and you say it all the time…which is perfect because you are seriously the happiest little boy in the world, I am sure of it. ¬†You bring us so much joy.

You have been such a big helper for me lately. ¬†My doctor hasn’t let me do much over the last month, and we aren’t allowed to run errands without Daddy anymore. ¬†But on days where we have no choice you are the absolute best behaved sweet pea one can imagine. ¬†We went to get yarn a few weeks ago at Michael’s and you just held my hand and walked beside me, carrying a skein of yarn. ¬†People say I am going to have my hands full once Drew gets here between you and him, but I just can’t quite believe it. ¬†And even if I do, it will all be worth it and I will love every second of it. ¬†You make me so thankful to be a mommy…I couldn’t dream of being anything better.

I’ve already started worrying a little about how the next month and a half or so is going to be for you…there are going to be a lot of changes. ¬†You will become a big brother, and we are most likely going to be moving. ¬†I just pray that you will take it all in stride and that you will understand what is going on. ¬†I hope it isn’t too hard on you. ¬†I know it will be so good once you get used to things- we are going to be living really close to you Mimi, Pop, Nanny, Papaw, and so many other family members. ¬†It will probably make us all a little sad to be leaving this house. ¬†We have only lived here a year, but that year has been a full one…full of such wonderful memories that I will never forget. ¬†Everything is going to be fantastic though, I just know it.

I love you to the moon and back sweet boy.



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constantly telling Bo about everything…you two love it when it’s warm enough to open the windows!